A Day of Toothache and Reentering a Path
Today I woke up with a bit of a headache. By noon, it got pretty bad. I started to realize that the headache was actually coming from a *toothache* that I have let go for a year too long. I got desperate and had to take some Ibuprofen to calm the pain down. I took a nap, woke up and decided to try to overcome my pain. I found a dentist that can see my tomorrow morning at 9AM, who will take my Dental Plan, and won't require full payment up front. (Sweet!). I think I am going to go tomorrow morning and get this taken care of for once and for all. I think this is going to be a big improvement to my life and how I feel on a day to day basis.
After I made the appointment I danced a bit to get my circulation pumping, did a clay mask and decided to take a bath. While I was in the bath I started to have a panic attack. I did what I have mostly have been doing lately when I get a panic attack... I ran and grabbed my new Kabbalah book that Shobha sent me for my birthday titled "72 Names of God". I looked at the usual name that I look at to dispel fear. Then, I called the 1-800 number that listed in the back of the book. It says that I could call the Kabbalah Center for a free 10 minute consultation about how Kabbalah can help me deal with the issues that surround my life at the moment. My panic attacks is probably my NUMBER ONE issue, so I thought I would call. I ended up getting connected with what they called a "Kabbalah Counselor" named Yosef. He said he was in New York City (the Kabbalah Center is in New York City). He asked me how much I know about Kabbalah, and took my name and information. He said that he wanted to help me and told me that he could take me on as a Kabbalah Student. He told me that I can call him whenever I want about any questions that I have about Kabbalah... for free! He recommended some books about how Kabbalah can help me with anxiety (they have actually published some) and told me to call him back after I read them.
He also told me that anxiety attacks do not happen by accident and that in all cases they mean something good. They are trying to tell me something, to make me examine what is causing them (a deep seated fear). The anxiety attack is pushing me to a different place, a new spiritual level, one that I cannot achieve until I uncover the mystery that lies beneath what is causing them.
I have a feeling that today was a good day in making steps towards living a happier and healthier life for me.
After I made the appointment I danced a bit to get my circulation pumping, did a clay mask and decided to take a bath. While I was in the bath I started to have a panic attack. I did what I have mostly have been doing lately when I get a panic attack... I ran and grabbed my new Kabbalah book that Shobha sent me for my birthday titled "72 Names of God". I looked at the usual name that I look at to dispel fear. Then, I called the 1-800 number that listed in the back of the book. It says that I could call the Kabbalah Center for a free 10 minute consultation about how Kabbalah can help me deal with the issues that surround my life at the moment. My panic attacks is probably my NUMBER ONE issue, so I thought I would call. I ended up getting connected with what they called a "Kabbalah Counselor" named Yosef. He said he was in New York City (the Kabbalah Center is in New York City). He asked me how much I know about Kabbalah, and took my name and information. He said that he wanted to help me and told me that he could take me on as a Kabbalah Student. He told me that I can call him whenever I want about any questions that I have about Kabbalah... for free! He recommended some books about how Kabbalah can help me with anxiety (they have actually published some) and told me to call him back after I read them.
He also told me that anxiety attacks do not happen by accident and that in all cases they mean something good. They are trying to tell me something, to make me examine what is causing them (a deep seated fear). The anxiety attack is pushing me to a different place, a new spiritual level, one that I cannot achieve until I uncover the mystery that lies beneath what is causing them.
I have a feeling that today was a good day in making steps towards living a happier and healthier life for me.
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